All the plans – such as gatherings with friends, the dreams – retiring to Hawaii, the trips we were planning – to visit Mike’s sister and husband in the UK and at their house in France, to visit NYC which Mike had never been to – even though he’d lived or traveled in over 49 countries. All these and many more desires that we had talked about . . . I now am erasing from the blackboard. Those plans don’t apply now. Well, some do – I will still go visit friends in NYC, and visit his sister & husband in the UK and France – just not with Mike. We talked about going to Esalen Institute in Big Sur – he had been and said it was so wonderful. Maybe I will go . . . and, it will be different without him.
In the book, Spiritual Liberation, by Michael Beckwith, he says: “Surrender is a bold spiritual stance, the stance of a spiritual warrior, because what we are surrendering to is the next stage of our evolution.” I am surrendering to a new next stage of my evolution, wiping the blackboard clean to start again.
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