So much time has passed and changes are occurring. I took off my wedding band a few weeks ago. I decided I didn’t need to wear it any longer. I’m not married anymore – except in my heart. I continue to wear the diamond ring Mike gave me – it’s got all the love energy in it. The ring was his mum’s. She bought it with lottery winnings. She had always wanted a large diamond solitaire. She told Mike it would be his later on. Mike’s mum died when he was 16 years old. When Mike father died about ten years later, he got the ring. And then he carried around the world for the next 25 years – working in places like South America,Thailand,Saudi Arabia, northern Canada. He never married during all this time. His work managing multi-billion dollar construction projects didn’t allow much time for relationships. There is a lot of love in this ring and I feel it.
I’m off for a vacation with girlfriends to Bali. Mike and I had talked about him doing one more construction project at a location around the world. The one he wanted to help manage was in Australia– just a short airplane ride away from Bali. I keep thinking about this and our plans for this project as I pack to go. I still miss him a lot.
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