I became a widow on October 21, 2009 when my husband died suddenly of a massive heart attack. Widow is such a strange word. Mike had worked and lived all over the world and had never married. I had been a single mom for ten years. Our finding each other was a beautiful love story. We were very connected. There was such a comfortablity between us.
I started to write my feelings and thoughts after his passing. I feel that Mike would want me to share my healing process with others. As a spiritual student my whole life, I do know that Mike lives on – just no longer residing in his physical vehicle. The shock of the change – Mike being here and then not here in form – is the physical and emotional part that I am still adjusting to.
I invite you to join me as a fellow traveler – to explore with me as I share my tales of grieving and healing and moving on into the future. May you find my thoughts helpful with your process of life’s changes with family and friends making their transitions and taking off their earth suits.
With much love and blessings, Marinda
Widowz Healing Blog 
Dear Marinda –
I have read your entries and find them to be really beautiful, heartfelt and inspiring – as a fellow single mom who has known you for very long, I was joyful at your happiness in finding such a perfect soulmate after so many years of doing it all yourself, and then so saddened that after a few short years he has traveled to another realm out of the physical presence – at the same time I am sure he is presently so connected to your spirit and heart.
I feel his passing was a pact to further accelerate your progress on the spiritual path, and in seeking his spirit yours will continue to grow – and that your love will keep you connected eternally…..
I go to Big Sur every year – one of my favorite Meccas, I have been to Esalen and would entertain going again – even tho I know it would not be the same without him – maybe you are meant to go…I would be willing to go with you – think about it!
love always – tina
Marinda,
Thank you for sharing such honest deep thoughts and emotions. I have enjoyed reading your entries. Everyone grieves for as long as it takes and maybe the rest of their life. There is no magic pill for healing. I have found learning to manage the pain is the best I can do at times.
Some experiences have a profound impact on our souls. How wonderful you met your soul mate and danced through life together, if even for a short time. It is not often we have such beautiful experiences with another physical being on earth. Mike understood you and your challenges. He supported you 100% and loved you unconditionally.
This is what we grieve, the unconditional love that person had for us. So hard to find from mere mortals. So hard to replace.
Keep sharing, as it is beautiful to read about the window into your soul.
Love,
Patti Medina